Tuesday, January 15, 2013

A bit of an update

Alright, it's been seven months. Where in the world have I been and what have I been doing if I haven't been writing on WILDyetZenful?

Well, long story short, I came up against a bit of a mental/spiritual block. I was calling it, and I'm still calling it, a quarter-life crisis (thank you John Mayer!). This block I encountered left me feeling tired, used up and completely lost. I have no idea what goes on inside my head a lot of the time, but I'm going to venture to say this block had a lot to do with disconnecting from my inner light, oh and fear.

Fear of success, mostly; fear of how powerful and great I really am.

In the words of Marianne Williamson,  

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

I've read this quote many times; the first time, in Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstein. This idea about fear is truly inspiring and it's an idea that many of us might not fully understand. It's an idea that I, myself, have not fully understood, until recently. Even then, it's a bit of a challenge to live by this idea. It's hard to see myself as this wondrous being, but I know that if I'm not shining my light and sharing it with the world, then the world will not be able join me in celebrating this amazing life we're so blessed to be living.

Alright, let's rewind to seven months ago:

I stopped practicing yoga. 
I stopped writing and pursuing freelance opportunities. 
I stopped singing. 
I stopped working out and doing the things I really enjoyed.

I felt like a phony. I would say to myself, "I'm not an expert on yoga/writing/singing. Who am I to do these things and act as if I'm great at them?" I mean, I would write about living a healthy, well-balanced lifestyle, yet I was struggling to live one myself.

You see, I've been on a journey to feel and look good and to enjoy all that life has to offer. So, I read tons of books in search of the right way of living a full life. Over the years I've learned about so many different philosophies and ideologies that now I've become a bit of a skeptic, especially skeptical of my purpose in this life.

I've become confused and scared. During this time of "crisis", my skepticism and all of my self-deprecating thoughts debilitated my ambition, leaving me at a standstill. I was going back and forth with what I wanted to do with my life: Do I wanna teach yoga? Do I want to become a full-time blogger? Do I want to sing? Should I go back to school for journalism?

I became so overwhelmed with the many opportunities available to me that I stopped doing everything. I became sedentary. I wasn't following my passions and I stopped doing the things I loved to do.

Although I haven't quite figured out what career path to take, I do have an idea of what I want my life to feel and look like, and I know that life isn't just about a career (which has been my main focus). Life is about serving and contributing to the world in any way that I can, but first I must nurture myself.

Now I know to take life day by day, enjoying every minute of it. No strict planning, no aims for perfection, no rights, no wrongs. No searching; just being and knowing. And loving. And giving. And engaging in the things that make my heart sing. If I'm doing all of that and doing it every single day, things will fall into place the way they are intended to. Life will be full of wonder and joy.

Here's to a wondrous and joyful life for all of us!

Thursday, June 28, 2012

i love...

a love list

1. singing; it's my therapy.

2. looking at the horizon from the beach in complete awe of it's vastness.

3. lazy lemon gelato & lemon cookies & lemon tarts.

4. witnessing the making of pure genius when my boyfriend creates a new song.

5. the feeling I get from savasana & yoga.

6. finding balance between healthy eats and sweet treats.

7. finding, then obsessing over new musicians.

8. being under the sun, feeling the wind, being among nature.

9. bombarding my wonderful boyfriend with my bottled up energy when he gets home from work.

10. remembering all of the things that make me happy.

Friday, December 9, 2011

i love...


They mask blemishes && they're super cute. It seems that I only really have them when I fake bake and since I don't do that anymore my freckles aren't as apparent. I'd like to have freckles like my grammy had...

Throwback freckles (5th grade)


sexy, can i?

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"A girl without freckles is like a night without stars."

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Guest Post for Silverfaeries & Dragonflies

I write a Sunday post for my aunt's blog every Sunday, but this past week she has been making exciting changes to her site. For now, I'm going to publish my guest post on my blog until she gets things up and running again.

Vriksasana - Tree pose
from the balancing series

I am a tree.
I represent inner growth and self-realization by being deeply connected with Mother Earth.
"I reach deep into the earth to find my source of wisdom and compassion."


Vriksa = tree
Asana = Posture

Start in mountain pose.
Bend the left knee and bring the sole of the left foot to the inner right thigh, heel as close to the groin as possible.
Press the foot and the thigh firmly against each other.
Level the pelvis by dropping the left hip down and pressing the left knee out and down, away from the center of the body.
Bring hands to heart center (or for another variation, "grow your tree" bringing arms overhead).
Maintain the posture as if you were in mountain pose: shoulders down away from ears, abs pulled in and up, and spine lengthened.

Focus on the breath.
The inhale draws the earth's energy up through the standing leg.
The exhale allows you to relax in the pose, however still maintaining length in the spine and stability in the standing leg.

In this pose, you are the tree of life. Imagine the earth's energy supporting and nourishing your roots. It rises up through your being, through the seven energy chakras. Each chakra contains an element of being and sustainability for this tree of life you've created with Mother Nature. The water element provides you with sustenance to grow and lengthen through the solar plexus where sunlight is let in. The energy continues to rise up through the heart chakra, the throat chakra, into the sixth chakra where "the flower of the tree of life blossoms fully...as wisdom and self knowledge."

strengthens and stabilizes legs
eases knee pain
creates peace and balance within

Take some time this week to really connect with yourself. 
Engage in breathing exercises that will help quiet and still the mind, so that you may open yourself up to self-realization and peace.  
Practice yoga and find inner balance and growth.