Thursday, February 17, 2011

Epiphany?

I've realized something...I CAN NOT seem to finish anything I start.
For example:

  • I started Ange's 30-Day Challenge and stopped at day 4.
  • I started college in the spring of 2008 and stopped short of my associates in arts degree (6 credits left).
  • I started eating a vegan diet in January of 2010 and started eating cheese with my wine 6 months later.
  • I started taking vocal lessons in May of 2010. Vocal chords are just like muscles and in order to have a solid singing voice you have to work 'em and practice. I rarely practice anymore.
  • I signed up for guitar class at school, bought a guitar, and began learning about chords and strumming. That was 7 months ago and I can play maybe three songs, and I rarely practice.
  • I started following Zuzana's site religiously 13 months ago to stay in tip-top shape and I've managed to jump off that band wagon too. 
What is wrong with me?? 
Do I have commitment issues??
 That can't be; I stayed in a toxic relationship for almost five years! 
That took serious commitment. 
So, why am I so scatter-brained and ADD-like?
Well, I don't have an answer for that, except that I must accept it as an essential part of who I am, or force myself to be different. 
The former sounds like something I might actually stick with.
So, in order to keep being me AND to finish what I start, I'm going to take things day-by-day, the J.Lynn way.


Look for a post of my Swellbeing Challenge progress, coming your way...tomorrow? We'll see ;)

5 comments:

  1. I think that
    1) You're brave enough to try anything
    2) You're smart enough to change something if it doesn't work for you
    3) Life is too short to follow any rules

    Lots of love xoxo

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  2. LOVE what gillian had to say! keep trying things! and keep TRYING in general! you're doing more than most people and better than you realize

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  3. thinking of you and hoping you're doing well. saying a prayer for you in my heart right now

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  4. heh, I also follow Zuzana's blog. I've never decided to do her workouts but I do them anyway now and then (when I don't have enough time for a "real" workout). btw, she doesn't finish what she starts either. they decided to stop drinking alcohol when i discovered the site. after a few months (or even sooner) she described her new diet rules, including occasional glass of wine. i don't blame her but it made me kinda sad because some of her greatest fans also decided to leave alcohol because of her. i never start challenges that are too rigorous although i do like to start them in general. i finish all challenges that i tell others about, especially if i blog them. i guess i take my social persona very seriously. it means me much if others can trust my words. :)

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